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Tangerine is In

10 Jan

Hello, friends 🙂 How’s life been treating you all lately? And how have you been treating it? 🙂 I must say that my first few weeks of 2017 have been great. As far as my New Year’s Resolutions are concerned, I’ve gained an initial strong momentum so I’m really happy. I’m doing most of the things listed there quite successfully, and I even added a few more items. But they say it takes at least 21 days to form a habit. Well i’m 10 days done, 11 days more to go before I can safely say i’ll be consistent with these changes. 🙂

Anyways,  one of the things I added in my list is to “always dress well and classy and be shameless about my fashion sense”.I want to make this year all about me, and a big part of “Me” is my love for fashion.

Speaking of fashion, let me just share with you my recent favorite dress that I think looks really classy but has managed to keep the “sexy” element at the same time:


I think my style has dramatically evolved over the years. I used to  wear skimpy outfits which usually sparked a conflict between me and my dad – where he would tell me to change my outfit, and I would of course defy. It was all big hoop earrings, denim, cropped tops, tubes and anything that exposes the flesh.My cousin even said I reminded her of the “Chonga girls” haha. (see picture at the end of the blogpost) Well, that time of my life was great while it lasted, but adulthood happened and I automatically started gravitating to “adult” clothes LOL.


Now, my closet is full of dresses. I have exactly 2 denim pants, 2 denim (not-so-pekpek-anymore) shorts, and very few pieces of revealing tops/blouses. Surprisingly, my shift from one end to the other of the “length of clothes spectrum” did not really have much of a difference in terms of fun and confidence. I am enjoying dressing up like a prim-and-proper lady as much as I enjoyed being the rebel-feelingerang-sexy-to-hell-with-you-all-im-gonna-wear-this-fabric-thrifty-of-an-outfit-with-lots-of-cut-outs-and-shit kind of girl.


I got this dress from a thrift shop for around P230 to P270 pesos (?! not so sure anymore). I love love love the color of the dress, but I died for the cut, the silhouette, an its perfect length.

tan-outfitlocally made bag, belt borrowed from mom

I paired this with my blue bag which was gifted by my aunt Lorna two Christmases ago. I just knew the bag’s color was the right color to complement tangerine. It kinda breaks the monotony, right? 🙂

p_20161217_173543I also wore my zebra-print bangle to give emphasis on the whole safari vibe of this outfit. My gold bracelet and watch are my constant accessories. I wear them all the time with almost any outfit.


Lovin’ the pop of blue! 🙂

I wore this outfit for the first time  last December 19 during our family Christmas party/reunion. We stayed overnight at Crimson hotel and I thought it would be a good opportunity to bring (and wear) nice, pulled-together clothes.

That night, I had a date too.



Hehe I was out with the cutest guy ever… and his name is Drei 😉



Drei is my cousin’s cousin (from the mother’s side) but he’s been the Brigola Clan’s adoptive baby because all of us are all grown ups now. Haha we had a fun dining experience at the hotel’s Executive Lounge, overlooking the entire Alabang. It was a good night really. 🙂 And I felt extra pretty in my dress hehe ^_^


I don’t know about you, friends, but when I find a dress I really like, my heart skips a beat, and it continues to skip beats every time I pull it out of my cabinet.

They say everyone has some sort of addiction in their lives. Fashion is probably it for me. When it comes to clothes, I find it really hard to stop myself from buying especially if I’m really in love with the piece.

I would usually use the excuse that I’m buying from thrift shops most of the time anyways so buying 5 to 10 dresses at a time (yes, i’m not exaggerating) is okay since the total cost is equivalent to just 1 dress if i buy in the mall. And buying 1 dress in the mall each month, or every 2 months is okay. Well, I know there’s something wrong with the logic. It’s not the cost that is the problem, it’s the inclination to have more, more, more. Everytime I give in to the impulse, I feed that addiction and in the end I know it’s gonna take it’s toll on no other than me.


Shoes from Parisian



I really find it hard to not buy clothes, or to part ways with my clothes. I know this is a habit I must change soon. Maybe my attachment to my clothes is borne by the fact that I always see them as a big part of me. And it’s not easy to let go of parts of us, right? But but but. There is no excuse for this crazy attachment. I dream to someday learn how to love a dress and yet not need it in my life at the same time. Okay. I know I also need to apply that in some other aspects of my life! ahahaha



Well, that’s all for today! 🙂 Hope you had fun reading this and I hope we all get to change our bad habits and addictions!




All the Best People Are

21 Dec


“Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?’
‘That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,’ said the Cat.
‘I don’t much care where -‘ said Alice.
‘Then it doesn’t matter which way you go,’ said the Cat.
‘- so long as I get SOMEWHERE,’ Alice added as an explanation.
‘Oh, you’re sure to do that,’ said the Cat, ‘if you only walk long enough.”

p_20160709_124952I’ve always loved the story of Alice in Wonderland. There’s something about Alice and her journey that beckon me. I think it is because I see a whole lot of me in her – she is crazy, clumsy in life, she journeys to the unknown on her own, she doesn’t seem to bow down to anyone – not even the notorious queen, and she is able to connect with the weirdest creatures there are, without ever questioning if they are indeed real. She has her own little world and she drifts off to that despite the disapproving frowns and questions of the people in her reality. Her imagination is so strong it brings Wonderland into life. What a stubborn 7 year old child. 🙂

p_20160709_125008Right now, I recognize more than ever that I am in this journey to my own wonderland but this time I am in it with more fearlessness, with more appreciation for the trip more than the destination, and with more conscious enjoyment of everything that comes along my way, including  especially of the most unlikely, strange and surprising encounters.

And I love it. I love where I am right now. I may not be the girl that goes on literal adventures, but inside me I am threading on a massive unexplored territory. Ah, adventures of the soul can be just as enriching and fun, you see. And I’m grateful.

geneva1top from H&M, pants from a thrift shop, belt from SM

p_20160709_123944_bf“But I don’t want to go among mad people,” Alice remarked.
“Oh, you can’t help that,” said the Cat: “we’re all mad here. I’m mad. You’re mad.”
“How do you know I’m mad?” said Alice.
“You must be,” said the Cat, “or you wouldn’t have come here.”

Looking back, I see a girl so naive and so full of childish dreams and who believes relentlessly in magic. And I see a girl whose stubborn heart gets bruised all the time, yet refuses to quit learning and yearning and hoping to receive what she truly wants. Why, I was quite bonkers then.  Well, I still am! with one particular change – I am fully aware that I am this one hella’ crazy lady and I am enjoying being one and definitely not ashamed or apologetic about it anymore.  And I resolve to continue on with this journey, and to take more and more unfamiliar paths — knowing in my heart that whichever way I go, I will end up at the same final destination.

p_20160709_124959Kate Spade bag

“Alice laughed: ‘There’s no use trying,’ she said; ‘one can’t believe impossible things.’ ‘I daresay you haven’t had much practice,’ said the Queen. ‘When I was younger, I always did it for half an hour a day. Why, sometimes I’ve believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.”

Ultimately, it doesn’t matter how neurotic other people perceive us to be. There is no harm in keeping on believing all the impossible things that inspire us. All the adventures are happening within us, inside us, through our very souls and so it is only us, and not the outside spectators who can really attest to the wonderfulness of our personal experiences. Too much obsession with the destination is a doing of the outside world. It invented the word “impossible” and any one who tries to reject the word and defy the limits are called “crazy”. I’ve been called that so many times, with different versions  of the term to boot… but so what? I am actually loving branding myself as bonkers…because as Madhatter told Alice – “all the best people are”.

p_20160709_124215Melissa shoes gifted by my aunt Blessie

p_20160709_124734“I wonder if I’ve been changed in the night. Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I’m not the same, the next question is ‘Who in the world am I?’ Ah, that’s the great puzzle!”

In the end, does it even matter who or what we end up being really? Is there not an assurance that if we travel consciously with only beautiful thoughts and intentions and with constant gratitude being the only baggage we carry into the night, then we surely are to arrive to somewhere fantastic the next day? It doesn’t matter where we find ourselves, or how absurdly wild to others we’ve become. It will always be lovely there if we choose to see it as such. 🙂 The only thing we can be certain of is that we will always be a different person tomorrow, hopefully, for the better and hopefully, as a new version of ourselves that we love even more.

p_20160709_124728“Those who don’t believe in magic will never find it.”

I’m 27 now, but I still love the 7 year old Alice in me.  I just have this extreme fascination with the beautiful madness of her world — Ever growing. Ever wondering. Ever learning. Never sane.

In Harmony

6 Jun

I’ve been reading this book by Dr. Wayne Dyer  called “Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life” . It discusses the principles of Taoism by translating the Tao-Te-Ching into the modern day context. It has so far enlightened me on how to live life in harmony with our nature, our source of creation, our inner God.



I learned that the Tao’s main antithesis is ego.  Every unhealthy thing that we are doing is because of ego – our tendency to obsess over something and to strive to the point of exhaustion, our love for worldly possessions, our desire for favors, status, accomplishments and titles, and our inclination to pass judgment on other people are all UNNATURAL and are driven by ego. This book teaches its readers how to live free from pride and vanity — and it goes way deeper than our common understanding of these terms.

blog26Ego, as defined by this book, is not only about our desire to be better than  other people or to project an image before them. It actually is more dangerous when what starts taking over us is the ego that we have against ourselves. For example, we chase people that we like even though it is clear that they don’t like us because our ego wants us to prove something to ourselves – that we are capable of achieving something unobtainable, or that being rejected means we are not good enough.

P_20160326_090931_BFWhen I read about this, i began double-checking my actions. Now, I am trying my best to distinguish if the pain or sadness I am feeling is really from the heart or if it is actually just pride. If it’s the latter, I dismiss the feeling. I tell myself “Let it go, Janica. It’s just your ego talking.”


The book explains that we are already perfect as we are, without doing anything more, because we are created in the image of God (yes the author seems to be a believer of  Christ and it is amazing how he reconciles the Tao-Te-Ching and the Bible). If we start believing that we already are enough, and we already have enough, then it is so much easier to “let go and let God”. The only thing we need to do in this world is to trust our inner calling and do the things that we love just because — without seeking validation from external forces, without obsessing over outcomes, and without trying too hard.  We just need to just be… and all the blessings will naturally follow. 

blog33Parisian shoes, Unica Hija bag

P_20160326_090832_BFdress from a Thrift Shop

blog24“Simply Allow” – we only need to allow things to happen to our lives. We only need to welcome the possibilities. We do not need to try so hard all the time to make something work. SIMPLY ALLOW.

Oh how I relate to this part of the book so much. I swear every sentence that I read resonates to my inner core. I have been a witness of both: I have tried the unnatural way of forcing things to transpire (mostly love life related) and I always end up hurting myself. I have also tried the way of the Tao where I just continuously do something because I love doing it (without any expectation of reward), then I stop when the work is done – i let go, so to speak, and just trust that I am in a good place (mostly career related), and I swear to God everything has worked out so well for me! Blessings overflow in this department!


“Stop pushing yourself, and feel gratitude and awe for what is“. Of course this is not to say that we all should be lazy. That is not the way of the Tao. What it is saying is that once the work is done then it is time to stop, relax and do nothing further. Effort and non-effort are both crucial in living harmoniously with our nature. It is one of the many paradoxes of life.

P_20160326_091058_BFI am not done reading the entire book yet but I’ve gotten so many insights and tips on how to live life well.I don’t know how it hooked me but it did. Of course it is not that easy to apply all the Taoist teachings to my life right away. But I would like to try to minimize my “unnatural” habits.

Good evening! 🙂

pictures taken by my mom in her garden 🙂

Muted Boldness

24 Apr

I suddenly missed my old blog (MalcolmFabness) last night and decided to visit it and browse. It is currently set in private mode, meaning unviewable by other people aside from me, because I didn’t like how it generally represented me back then. Behind the fun fashion posts, I could see the version of me that was still very much insecure and sad. When I transitioned to this blog Shallow Euphoria, my life has been turned around and I am happy to have made that change. However, I recognize that I still have some really good pictures (and good outfits) there in Malcolmfabness that is worth sharing to my new audience and would still fit right in at this new blog. So, I’ve decided that I’m gonna repost some of these pictures here once in a while. Kinda like the #throwback concept. hehe Let’s start with this set:

GEDSC DIGITAL CAMERAI like this outfit because it is sexy but it’s decent at the same time. It has lots of bold and sexy elements in it yet it looks pretty organized and clean in its entirety. It almost feels dark and heavy- what with the hue of the shorts, the shoes, the lippies and the accessories yet the polo in radiant white reduces the drowning tendency of the ensemble. The contradictions are just out there but then they all manage to balance each other out. 😉


My hair was still straight back then. What do you think about my short haircut? 😉

new-folder-517Korean brand shoes, earrings from Landmark, statement ring from GirlShoppe

My accessories are very bohemian right? haha I don’t know I’ve always been a sucker for big and attention-grabbing accessories. Haha my cousin told me just last night my penchant for these stuff qualifies me as a “Chongga Girl” lol. (Search it in Youtube if you don’t know what it is.) I’d like to think though that my taste has improved over time and my fashion choices are way classier now. haha.

collages5White button down with cut-outs on the shoulder and my forest green dressy shorts are from Landmark; bag from Manels

new-folder-511Bold accessories are a woman’s armor. Not everyone can rock it, but those who do will always be my idol. 😉 If you can only see my closet — most of my accessories are wild and colorful and chunky. haha. We all change, and yes hopefully for the better, but there are just some things that stay with us: Bits of Malcolmfabness that I love even though I have Shallow Euphoria now, my old over-the-top accessories amidst the sea of golds (fancy gold lang ha hindi tunay haha) and pearls in my closet, and a welcome looking-back at my old self no matter how weak that old girl used to be — she will always be a part of me, and she will always remind me that I have gone a long way now. 🙂

That’s it for today! 🙂 Have a happy weekend!

A Beautiful Mess

17 Apr

Sharing an outfit today under the file name “Coachella-girl-rushes-off-to-a-tea-party look”… just because my hair and somehow my necklace would fit right in at the hippy, trippy event that is Coachella but my mint green sleek dress and my pink shoes would definitely put me in a garden brunch kind of setting. haha.


My hair is a mess! but I like how so properly it complements, or balances out rather, an otherwise too uptown-girl and uptight outfit. hihi. ^_^ Just like life right? there is always that rebellious, careless, clumsy and vulnerable side to us that keeps everything interesting no matter how neat we try to live. 😛


Life is a beautiful mess. And we all just need to embrace the glorious mess that we are. It is supposed to be celebrated and enjoyed. It is a blessing, oftentimes in disguise. 🙂 So I say lets do our own thing! Let’s experiment, explore, wonder, try, fail and let mess unfold out of our young lives. Sooner or later, we will get the hang of the process, and with practice, we will achieve what we’ve always been aiming for.

Handling our mess with grace is handling ourselves with love. Imperfections leave make a beautiful dent in our lives. 🙂

blog28Dress from SM department store — kids section if i’m not mistaken! hahaha.

Sometimes we find treasure in the most unlikely and unexpected of places. Aaah the joy it brings to my heart is just unquantifiable every time it happens to me! 🙂

P_20160324_180059Parisian shoes

qww“One day, she finally grasped that unexpected things were always going to happen in life. And with that she realized the only control she had was how she chooses to handle them. So she made the decision to survive using courage, humor and grace. She was the queen of her own life and the choice was always hers.”

P_20160324_175631_BFNecklace from Divisoria

P_20160324_174735“Because no matter what happens, you are going to get hurt in life. But it’s so much better to have jumped into the ocean and gotten stung by a jellyfish than to never have felt the salt water between your toes at all.” ―  T.K. Leigh,  A Beautiful Mess


That’s all for today because I have to clean my room pa! haha have a happy Sunday! 🙂

Lavender Fields

9 Apr

I finally love myself. 🙂 That I am sure now. I used to just think that I should start loving myself more. Now I am certain that I already do. I know because I was able to let go of something I’ve always been addicted to but was never healthy for me. For the first time in my life, I genuinely believed that I do deserve better.  Last night, I accepted what is and disillusioned myself from what it could be. It used to be just in my mind you see -being strong and making my own good a priority. Well, I finally can say that I have conclusively made it happen – to choose “me”, to stop settling, to stand my ground when the biting reality comes. That is how I know I have already achieved an important life goal: I now love myself more. 🙂

They said that right decisions are usually the toughest to make. For all the bad and stupid decisions that I made in the recent and not-so-recent past (and trust me, there are so many), I know that the one I made last night was something I’m gonna be most proud of. It was not an easy feat but I did it. It was the culmination of all my efforts to grow and improve myself. And for that I am happy.

bigstock-Stunning-Lavender-Field-Landsc-41183260.jpgNow it is time for a fresh start. Equipped with the right perspective, a smarter mind, and a more dignified heart, I know that I am in for a journey that will finally take me to where I wanna be – a place as opulent and charming as… lavender fields. 🙂  A place to run around free from all ropes of negativity, a paradise where everything is just beautiful and happy and truly meaningful.

Speaking of lavender fields, here is an outfit that is inspired by it:

(ang galing ng segue ko, aminin nyo hahaha)

P_20160324_180944A breezy, summer look that speaks of  quiet glee and pristine calmness. I hope you feel the softness in it, the delicate simplicity of it. Because I do, and I love it 🙂

P_20160324_181001“Life is a paradise for those who love many things with passion”. And out of these many things, the most important of all is ourselves. Loving ourselves with passion is the pinnacle of happiness because while loving other people or things bring enormous joy in our lives,  it is only when we truly love ourselves first can we genuinely love others too. 🙂


blog29Top and necklace from Landmark, Korean-brand shoes, white shorts gifted by a relative


I made a personalized journal to remind me of the things that I consider important. I named it my “Dreams and Schemes” notebook because it is where I write down all my hopes and goals and graces in life. The Law of Attraction encourages this kind of hobby. It says that writing down one’s aspirations helps shape one’s frame of mind and way of thinking , which then fuels the reality of one’s life. I think doing this has helped me a lot on this journey. Allow me to give you a preview (don’t judge! hahaha):
blog32Because I remind myself of what’s written on this notebook every single night, I was able to get myself out of a less than ideal situation. Because I wrote down what I truly want, my standards for the kind of treatment by others I will accept  became crystal clear to me. It became easier to stick to what I genuinely want and to do away with things that don’t serve that purpose.


Next time I will share another entry from my old journal that is a testament of the truth of what I am advocating here. (mejo out of place lang sya ngayon dito haha)

That is all for today!

I hope you get something from my blog entry. 🙂 Have a fun and fulfilling weekend! 🙂


5 Mar

“There’s a trick to a graceful exit. It begins with the vision to recognize when a job, a life stage, or a relationship is over – and then to let go. It means leaving what’s over without denying its value.” – Ellen Goodman

Recently Updated7I’ve always had trouble letting go gracefully. This is because when I love, I love hard. I give it my all before I decide to retreat. I exhaust everything that I have until there is no more I could give, and this usually makes letting go so much harder because it feels like I’ve given up so much of myself for a love that was, after all, not meant to be…

P_20160214_082635_BFSabrina-cut beige top handed down by Tita Baby, loose brown pants from Landmark, brown bag gifted by Tita Lorna

I realized the past two weeks that this is a wrong and unwise way of loving. Heck, it is not what love is supposed to be. By doing too much, we open up ourselves to unnecessary hurt. But love should not make us suffer. Love shouldn’t feel contrived. It shouldn’t feel forced. It shouldn’t require too much energy. In the end, I realized that love is only true when it comes naturally to both parties, at the same right time.

Recently Updated6Necklace and bracelet from Landmark, watch gifted by my mom.


This is the outfit I wore last Valentines Day – an outfit that made me trip 5 times while touring Intramuros, which he found too cute. lol. While my love story with the guy I was with last Valentines Day ended in a very magulo way shortly after, this nude number, I must say, will always remind me of that moment when February 14 finally felt so special. I’ve always longed for that year when Valentines Day would mean something to me. Never was I treated so well and dearly before but because of him, I got to experience being a princess on this day. He took very good care of me and made the day all about me – just the way I’ve always dreamed it should be. he has impressed the seven year old in me who was enamored by fairy tales and hopeless romantic movies.


While what we have did not last for very long, I know that there was a reason  God sent me him. Maybe, aside from giving me the Valentines Day experience i’ve always longed for once and for all, it’s also so that I could cross out my Bucket List item number 3? 😛 haha

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Someday, the love that I’m praying for will come. I know it will. Maybe, all the heartache and disappointment are just God’s way of preparing me for that big day. Maybe, He is teaching me to let go gracefully not for the benefit of others, but for the good of myself. He wants me to not self-destruct for love. He wants me to be sure of my love for myself before He gives me another person to take care of. Letting go is an act of kindness to ourselves. Doing it with ease means that we see how on our own we are enough.


“In the end, only three things matter: how much you loved, how gently you lived, and how gracefully you let go of the things not meant for you.”

 I understand now. and I promise to deal with it better and to love myself even more every single time.

That is all for today, have a wonderful Saturday! 🙂