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Dream Catcher

20 Jul

I am a shameless subscriber of the Law of Attraction, of the power of thoughts, of the universe conspiring to make things work for the relentless believers.

One prominent teaching of the said law is to have faith in our dreams even though the road ahead is blurry and even though we have no idea how to get to where we want to be. The key is to have our end goal very clear in our heads. That’s the only thing we need to do and the universe will do the rest.

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I remember writing down in my journal a few months back that I want to have a job that I am passionate about, a job that is meaningful, and a job that I will love forever.  I specifically jotted down that I want a job that would allow me to champion women’s rights and empowerment and that would make people respect me not out of compulsion or fear but out of inspiration.

Even though I had no idea how to get there, I held on to the thought so tightly.

During that time, I was still working in the law firm of my father as a paralegal while studying law. Given my situation back then, I had no clue how and when that dream job of mine is gonna come. A few years back, I was a heavy whiner.  I’d curse law school and my law firm job every single day. I’d question myself for contradicting my own dreams: I’d question why I even accepted my dad’s offer to work for his firm, I’d question why I am in law school in the first place, not knowing that all of these are preparing me for that ultimate moment.

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During that time, I was feeling so lost and I thought I was making a big waste of my years. I think I was very unfair to my dad too. Because I had this internal chaos and conflict going on inside me, I never fully appreciated what my parents have done and are doing for me. Especially my dad – my dad who gave me every opportunity to grow and learn.

Now, I am working at the Philippine Commission on Women. A week has passed after I officially started, yet I still am on a high.

My application process has been very swift. I submitted my resume Tuesday, I got called for a written examination Thursday, and I am assuming I passed the test because I got a schedule for Interview the following Monday. I was almost hired by one of the panel interviewers during the interview proper. And it was formalized in a week. It happened all so quickly. At the timing I didn’t even expect. PCW was the first agency I applied for. Because it was the job that I was coveting so badly. And I got the job in a snap.

Now before you misinterpret my point, I am not saying that I am so great and invincible that’s why I got my dream job so easily. NO. not the case at all. What I’m trying to say is that everything fell into place and the UNIVERSE played a big role in this. It helped me land the job i’ve been wishing for for the longest time in a way that is oh so unpredictable!

Firstly, I owe this accomplishment to my dad. The main reason I got hired was because of my training and work experience which would not have been there if not for him. During my interview, most of the deciding questions asked from me was about our existing laws that are discriminatory to women and about my knowledge in policy making – both subject matters I am very familiar with because of the very two things I hated the most: LAW SCHOOL and LAW FIRM JOB. 

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I never would have thought that the things I’ve been complaining about the past years would turn out to be my stepping stone to my dream job. After all the ranting and the cursing, I never imagined that there would come a time that I would have to attribute the realization of one of my dreams to the very things that I thought were holding me back from it.

After my interview, I immediately thought of my father. I was so full of gratitude for him. I couldn’t explain my joy.

Had my dad not convinced me to go to law school, had he and mom not tirelessly persuaded me to continue continue continue and finish the course, I would not have answered the questions thrown upon me by my interviewers regarding legal provisions.

Had my dad not offered me a job in his firm, Had he not exposed me to all the facets of the legal profession, had he not asked me to work on this, on that, to draft this and that, I would not have a f*cking clue about policy making and bill drafting and whatnot.

My application process was fast because it was bit by bit a match between what PCW needs and what I can provide. If this isn’t magic I don’t know what is.

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My dad gave me all the brain tools that I needed to ace my application process – from my resume down to the interview. The training I got from him plus my burning passion for feminism resulted in a perfect, almost easy combination for this ‘success’.

So in retrospect, things did fall into their place after all.  I held on to my dream, wrote it down and read it every night even though I could not see the road ahead from my vantage point that time. If there’s one thing  I’ve learned from this beautifully ironic experience, it’s that FAITH really works.

As I worked hard to improve my disposition in life, the universe did not fall short on its promise to repay my efforts. It was no easy feat. I had to fight a lot of negativity. But I was determined to make my life work. And accordingly so, the universe – through my father’s wisdom, and law school and my past job – did conspire to bring me to my happy place… finally. 🙂

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Cosmos

12 Jul

The cosmos is the universe regarded as a complex yet orderly system; it is the opposite of chaos.

Funny that it is also a name for a genus of flowers with a variety of happy colors ranging from pink, yellow, and bright orange.  My mom just picked some of these from her garden. I’ve read these are easy to grow and maintain.

11742892_1672365536332234_1279389131867883227_nI am back at my parent’s house for the weekend before I start on my new job tomorrow (which is a job I’ve always wanted, and would pay pretty decently too). As it has always been a favorite routine of mine ever since I lived here for a close 3 weeks after my classes last June, I sat down the patio with a coffee on one hand, and two blocks of chocolate on the other, with all these pretty plants surrounding me, and Tuta (one of our 3 dogs and my favorite I must say) happily playing at the front yard. All as I type away from my laptop for my blog because I can….

My life is easy.

Too easy. 

11703016_1672370862998368_606753085857996359_nIn another city, one friend of mine is battling Stage IV lymphoma. He is only 24. He is the sole breadwinner of his family. I’ve never gotten the chance to visit him in the hospital because I’m to chicken to go alone.  I don’t think I can handle seeing someone I know go through an illness I’ve always considered the scariest and most painful. I can’t even begin to imagine how I’m going to handle it if that happened to me.

On the other side of the planet, another friend is struggling to make ends meet, facing a very tough crisis  albeit only temporarily ( i trust), and yet she still chooses to deal with it on her own.

And all I can do is pray that both of them are kept safe. And then I sip my coffee and eat the breakfast that was cooked for me by someone else. All of a sudden all of my worries in life are rendered trivial.

No. being “stuck” in law school is not a problem because my parents are paying for my education. No. having very minimal savings is not a problem because we are nonetheless well provided for (In the Philippines, children don’t to move out when they’re 18. We usually stay with our parents and siblings until we decide to marry.) No. being heart broken is not a problem because it doesn’t deprive you of the beauty of the world. No. I don’t have a problem in life, at least not as grave as the problems of other people.

I am here, enjoying free meals, free internet, a free garden, a free big house, free time – all products of the toils of my dear parents. And yes I’m almost ashamed to say that my life is easy. And more ashamed to have even felt like my world was falling apart at some point in my life when in reality, it has always been well arranged, well maintained and well insured. Free from real chaos. 11221588_1672365549665566_972291115196745646_n

Life is never perfect, not for anybody it isn’t. But there are so many things to be thankful for. And affording a beautiful Sunday morning is one of them. Having the time to smell the roses (or cosmos for that matter) is one of them. Seeing your parents grow old together is one of them. Eating three times a day is one of them. Breathing. Sleeping. Waking up is one of them.

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My life so far is a cosmos.  And I am thankful that my years have been relatively easy for me. However, I recognize that I am too inexperienced at life considering that I’ve never been into any serious trouble or struggle so far. Not that I’m asking for one. Please, God, no. But if ever I encounter the same hardships, I only wish that I get the same amount of strength, hope, and resilience of my dear friends in it right now.

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Knocking on the hearts of my good readers and fellow bloggers. Let’s help my friend battle cancer. Any amount of donation will go a long way. Visit the fundraiser page for himhttp://www.gofundme.com/all4jheric

Chandeliers

10 Jul

Yesterday was my mom’s birthday. We celebrated it with dinner at the newly opened branch of Crisostomo at Blue Bay Walk in Pasay City. Despite the heavy rains brought about by the typhoon, we still managed to go out and bond. Dining out has always been our default family time. We’re not big movie goers and my parents are not so much of thrill seekers but every time there’s an occasion, it’s imperative that we eat out.

Last time, I promised you guys that my next outfit post would not be blue. LOL. And I’m happy to announce that my clothes last night were far from it. Anyways, I was somehow inspired by Kate Middleton’s outfits circulating the net lately (where she’s wearing a white dress during Charlotte’s christening) – very chic, clean and comfy. And I tried to infuse those elements into this:

Yes, the typhoon presented an opportunity for me to wear my trench coat again lol. Being in a tropical country, weather’s almost always too hot or humid (yes even if it’s raining) to don a trench coat. So, yesterday was a chance I could not miss. haha.

 Paired it with off-white pants, a pair of gold shoes from Parisian, Dorothy Perkins bag and gold accessories from Baclaran bangketa  (sort of like a flea market in other countries). haha.

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I have this thing for fancy, well lit, cozy restaurants. I get excited when a restaurant’s interiors  are elegantly put together, with lots of whites, lights, and plants. oh and of course,  let’s not forget the nicely plated food.  I’m not a big fan of expensive buffets and of Chinese restaurants, what with their standard 10-seater round tables, dragon images and feng sui porcelains etc. Not my type of place, although I do appreciate the food 🙂

Jpeg This particular branch of Crisostomo has magnificent interiors. And it’s very spacious too. Its open-below was the key to achieving that very regal feel to it. I mean, just look at the blend of the tree and the chandelier!  =)

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crisostomo1Anyways, this is how my outfit looks like sans the coat. Hidden by it was this emerald green bodycon dress from Forever 21 which I used as a top. 😉

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Jpeg Happy birthday mom! 🙂 I Love you!! ❤

The Sweetness of Being Alone

26 Jun

 It was a fine Monday morning. It drizzled for a little bit so the plants outside looked fresh with an illusion of dew drops on them. When the light raining stopped, I decided to grab some breakfast in one of my favorite places with the one person I know would enjoy that kind of cool romantic weather: Myself.DSC_0820I wore this midnight blue dress. Paired it with a red bag. Threw on a vibrant scarf bought by my dad for me from Cambodia. And put my hair up. I wanted to look a little presidential. (Well, i tried haha).

Hailed a cab and fifteen minutes after, I was in my happy place.  🙂

11677_1628603567375098_3801252453598771415_nBreadtalk, Greenbelt. haha. That time, this bakery-cum-cafe has just newly opened so not a lot of people have heard about it yet. I’ve been going to this place for when I want to spend time alone and almost always, I was lucky enough to have the entire second floor all to myself.

10941873_1628603614041760_4719583808677018106_nOrdered some bread (not in the photo), and then went on to savor this perfect tiramisu cake with a coffee latte on the side. I spent around two hours pretending I was in a cafe in Paris,  eating slowly my very french food (pastries and coffee, don’t argue lol) while writing on my journal and evaluating my life.

It was a very inspiring moment, what with my delicious food and the music being played. Famous songs were made mellow by the bossa nova beat. Viva La Vida. how very apt.  Life is indeed worth celebrating, however simple. 🙂

My date was very pleased. She has always loved this kind of leisure. For her, being with me was always a dear experience, in its own understated way.

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Then we both wondered, why are a lot of people so scared of being alone? If they only see past the part where they think being seen hanging out with no one but themselves will make them a loser, perhaps they’d also discover the secret sweetness there is in dining out alone, seeing a movie alone, walking nearly a mile alone with just our music and our thoughts as company.

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Now don’t get me wrong – being with friends is great. But don’t you crave for a day where you don’t have to consider anybody else’s preferences, taste, time or budget? Where your decision is only yours to make. Where you can embrace your hidden weirdness without having to fear judgment (no matter how light) from others?

But more importantly, spending time with ourselves once in a while gives us some space to reflect on our lives. Are we currently where we want to be? Have we been good persons lately? What are the things we need to improve on to be better versions of ourselves? What do we do next, what do we have to change so that we can be happier? Sometimes, we are too busy attending to others we lose our own identity and we forget our dreams and plans for ourselves. Being alone once in a while provides us some time to assess our own lives and it  gives us an opportunity to plan them accordingly, without any external elements influencing our thoughts and mindset.

1013818_1628603160708472_7354091152858560580_n So go ahead… find your own happy place and try to treat yourself once in a while. Find comfort in the company of yourself and free your spirit from the dictates of society. Take a selfie. Photograph your food. Talk to strangers that you will never meet again. Pretend you’re a princess, or a pretty Parisienne (ehem). Find joy in immersing yourself with your own thoughts or in silently observing the world around you. Trust me, it’s not that hard. 🙂

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